Your Promises, They Look Like Lies

Okay, so you've probably all heard by now...but  BRITNEY SPEARS has LOST CUSTODY of her kids.
A shame? I dunno. Who would you rather have looking after you? Britters or K-Fed? A drug taking, labia flashing, alcoholic? Or some one who might smoke the occasional joint? I know who I'd choose, that's for sure!
I think that we should just put her in a straightjacket and institutionalise her. I've thought that all along. She's seriously cracked.

Anyways, SPOILER ALERT  for UK fans of 'Heroes'...

Nathan Petrelli is Claire's dad. Yup :]

S'all for now. Check out my photography?? LOVE

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Citing Wikipedia: 

At 12:10 p.m. on August 26, 2007, Owen Wilson was rushed to St. John's Hospital in Santa Monica, California, by ambulance. Initial reports cited the reason as dehydration, however it has been reported that he was discovered with superficial wounds to his wrists and a near-empty bottle of pills in the bathroom of his Santa Monica home, by his older brother Andrew.  Andrew called 911 at 11:59 a.m. Wilson was later transferred to the Cedars-Sinai Medical Center in Los Angeles, CA, where his condition was described as serious, but later upgraded to good condition. On August 27, 2007, Wilson issued a statement: "I respectfully ask that the media allow me to receive care and heal in private during this difficult time."

Yep, folks. I woke up to the radio this morning, and a couple of minutes later, this was a news bulletin. It's an understatement to say that I was shocked. My thoughts go out to him, and I hope he recovers soon.

Renee Zellwegger: Perhaps known more for her constantly shrinking frame rather than her acting...here's more (column) inches for her: http://i61.photobucket.com/albums/h61/cetrimide/Renee_468x753.jpg

Pete Wentz: Has combined Clandestine Industries with DKNY, to create a rather hot range. I have to say I'm pleasantly surprised :]  http://www.dknyjeanspromo.com/clandestineindustries/

Ville Valo: Has since left rehab for alcohol-related problems. I wish him all the best.

and on the subject of alcohol...Laura Bates: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/pages/live/articles/news/news.html?in_article_id=478126&in_page_id=1770

Stupid, stupid girl. She had liver failure, and was given 12 hours to live. Luckily, she was giving a life-saving liver transplant. Less than two weeks later, she carries on drinking alcohol. I'm sorry, but what f*cking retarded person does that?!? I'm a recovering alcoholic, and have done a lot of damage to my liver over the years from alcohol and pills. Does she have a freaking deathwish or something?! Wake up and smell the ground six feet under, hunni.

That's all for now

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Came back from my holiday at 2am this morning! (It's nearly 7pm now)

It was beautiful and amazing!! EVERYONE GO TO SARDINIA!!

Liam pretty much just asked me out...I managed to let him down gently, and it's all okay, luckily. Thank God for being good in English lol. Poor guy :

Yawns...not much else...loving Presley at the moment :D

 

ZAC EFRON IS HAWT

 

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So I kinda haven't been on this thing in a while...right...my plan....to update this and make it slightly cooler :D sound good?

Exam results on the 16th...I'm gonna start bricking it. But luckily, I'm going on holiday on the 18th :d for a week, in lovely sunny Sardinia!!

THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA = AWESOME :D seriously, I love that film :D

Haha Henry added me on myspace...I accepted, checked out his profile, then deleted him :P lmao

 

OMG TEEDY JOHN IS SO HOT if you know who i mean, then i like your style :P

 

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Hey y'all.

So the rain is finally here. Luckily I went on my bike about an hour and a half ago, when it was still warm and sunny. Damn that British weather...I hope I can still go on my bike later.

I need to check if Carmen's replied...nope. She might reply later. She's coming over next Thursday to interview me for Sunday Magazine...and if they publish my story, then I get £500. Not bad for an hour-long interview :]

I'm getting my belly button pierced this friday :] and I'm going to Sardinia in August, which will be awesome. I'm going on twice-daily bike rides to shape up a little, and also to make me a bit fitter. Especially as I've given up smoking! I think I might go on a sunbed about a week or so before we leave...give myself a head start.

My perfspot has been doing well. I can't wait till I hit eighteen, so I can officially be a glamour model.

I might be going to City Of Bristol for my second year of college. In fact, I'll call them in a second.

I also need to send Susan that cheque.

That's all for now!

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I seriously haven't updated for a while! The main thing I had been meaning to do was post my pics and videos, and do a journal, from the Yourcodenameis:milo gig I went to with Hannah :D Fucking awesome show...we managed to get our tickets signed afterwards, too :O :D love that roadie haha

I've finished college for now. Done all my lessons and exams :]

I'm now the Company Secretary for Label Records, which is cool :]

Watch the film Perfume, check out the band We Are The Fury, and thank God for Victoria's Secret :D

My parents have taken the scales from my bathroom, so I don't know how much I weigh anymore : but it's probably about 9 and a half stone, something like that. I dunno.

June 24th

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been getting lots n lots of music :]

my romnace-94 is now inactive. i've deleted the account. i think i'll delete my turtle one aswell.  Rick is a cunt. excuse the honest language.

paris tomorrow :] will be fun. i've updated my iPod majorly. I've been checking out decent supermarkets, and I will need to find Monoprix. Apparently I can buy all my soya goodness there :D haha

FOB delayed their Honda Civic tour. I knew that would happen. Honestly, I could tell just by the way they were at the Brixto gig. Shame, but I hope they get better soon

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OMFG that was the most amazing time of my life.

Okay, Saturday. Went to Anita's for, ahem, a girls' night in. Except Jim, Oz, Lucas, Freddie, and some guy called Rich were there too1 It was fun though; pizza, crisps, music, talk :] There was alcohol there too, and that was really difficult for me. I was so fucking close to just taking a can, or drinking from the bottle. So close. Jim and Oz kissed, and Hannah kinda flipped, so I had to try to calm her down. I just sat with her, and I hope she knows that I did all in my knowledge to help her. Loads of people left at the same time: Anna, Flik, Lucas, Freddie, Rich. But it was still a good night:]
I went back to Hannah's. We watched the first half of Princess Mononoke, and awesome film, before going to bed. We woke up the next morning to try to book Glasto tickets for her and her dad, and we succeeded! They sold out in 90 minutes. Had a bath, put on my outfit, watched the rest of the film, and then had COFFEE WITH CAFFIENE IN!!!! Anna came over, and we did her make up. Then we went up to Brixton.

NB me and Hannah were regretting eatint dairy the night by now

Sunday, the gig. We got the academy at maybe around 6? Luckily the queue was pretty small when we got there; especially compared to when I saw SOAD there. Went in, used the toilet, I bought myself a Cobra Starship t shirt :D, and we got free badges too. Shiny Toy Guns started playing as we approached the main hall. They're INSANE live :D And the female singer is so hot too! Anna and Hannah were dancing away lol like idiots :P (love you!). But yea, the band were loving it. Then it was Cobra Starship, who I was stoked about seeing. They're fucking incredible; I didn't expect them to be that good live! They played almost the entire album (minus 2 tracks). It's released in the UK today, but I had it imported from the US. They really play well with and to the crowd, and they....just WOW FUCK! The drummer was so into it, that he broke the snare and bass after the FIRST SONG!. Later on, Gabe twisted his ankle because his shoes were untied, so he was telling us all to make sure our laces were done up! He asked for painkillers in exchange for lots of love and free t shirts; he actually got given paracetamol (like advil) from someone in the crowd! They didn't do 'Hollaback Boy'm which kinda sucked, but they were still insane! They got some girl from the crowd to do the rap on </i>'Bring It'</i>; their speciality.
On 'The Ballad Of Big Poppa and Diamond Girl', they dedicated the second verse to all the girls in Spanish class :P He got us all to do the Cobra Starship sign, which I did before he told us how. Oh, and on 'Church Of Hot Addiction': the line We Believe That God Has Lust For Everything, he did the 'father, son and holy ghost' thingy :P which was awesome!
They played 'The Kids Are All Fucked Up', which is my song of choice from the album :D
By the end of their set, I had half lost my voice. My throat was raw, my mouth dry. I could feel my vocal chords shredding.

Fall Out Boy had an awesome entry. It went pitch black, with a couple of small flashing lights, and a voice saying 'this is a public service announcement' etc etc. Then they played KanYe West's version of 'Arms Race'....so cool! And then they came onstage, and the crowd literally went wild! I looked onstage, and saw Pete and Patrick, and I was honestly holding back tears. Yes, I'm sad, okay get over it. But it was such an experience for me, as Pete Wentz is a hero and idol to me. It was just fucking phenomenal. Something suddenly clicked in my head that this is Fall Out Boy, and...wow, the night of my life.
Pete did his usual spins, and licked Joe's guitar. Joe was going insane on stage, it was fantastic! Running around, standing on a speaker onstage, playing to the crowd. He was doing his spin kicks. And man, can he play well!! Patrick seemed to having fun too :] He got onto one of the speaker things at the front to just play guitar, which was awesome! And his voice...no words can describe it. Just so rich and beautiful...the most incredible voice I have ever heard! On 'Sugar', Pete did his usual salute thing, but Patrick didn't do the heart on 'Dance, Dance', but oh well...can't have it all! They started talking about the word 'goddamn', and then started to play a bit of P!ATD's 'I Write Sins', which was fucking brilliant! Obviously, they then started to play 'Arms Race'. They also played the riff to 'Beat It' by Michael Jackson, which made me so happy! Pete said that he wrote the next song, 'Thriller' for and about that man :D
Dirty came onstage while the band had a break, and he's brilliant. The beer he had in his hand...he drank it for us :D And man, I mean necked it. He got hit over the ass with a snooker cue, just because. I caught it on video :P He's fantastic!
The band came on, we sang out hearts out, and just had a hell of a good time. Hannah started to flip a little because at one point everyone started to jump around us, so I put my arm around her, and she gripped onto my other arm. Luckily, she calmed down :]
When they played 'XO', I nearly died; it was amazing. And 'Nobody Put Baby In The Corner' :D
Oh man, they were fantastic! Pete did seem a little off however, and Hannah and I put that down to his medication. But he still had fun. Andy was craaaaaaaazy on the drums; like Animal! Joe was running around and he came to our side by the speakers a couple of times. So did Pete, which was great. The last song was 'Saturday', which is always their finale. Pete put down his bass, and jumped into the crowd. He was just sat up, singing into the mic, thanking us for being so great and all that stuff :D I have a feeling I got that on camera too :D
Just wow, fucking insane.
I caught Gabe's, Joe's, and Pete's eyes a couple of times, which made me VERY happy haha :P
We made our way out, which was almost impossible considering the amount of people, and the fact that we were kind of crippled. My voice had virtually disappeared. I had a look at the fake tour shirts outside, but they didn't even have our date on it; it had March 31st and April 2nd, but not April 1st. Fuck that, I'll make my own :] Hannah and Anna both bought posters.
Got picked up and made our way back. We stopped off at a service station to get a bit of food, and were on our way again. I was still wide awake, even at 1am. I managed to keep everyone awake on the drive home :D
Stayed at Hannah's again, as we got back at 1:30am this morning. Woke up at some point later on in the morning, feeling wrecked. My body ached, my throat was raw. We still smoked though :P Went to college to see Liam, who had some cuts on his arm. I'm glad that he told us though, because it will be easier for him.
Stayed in smokers later for aaaaaages. Met some guy called Ben, and we were all talking to him and Nathan. It was so warm and sunny it was great. I was just lying on the ground. Later we went onto the field. Oz and Liam went, so I just stayed with. Haha Ben is so hot :O *drool* and he's absolutely hilarious! I hope he's in on Wednesday :P lmao
Went to town, then back to Hannah's with Oz and Freddie in tow. Watched American Pie :D which is hilarious. And I never knew that soya bread and butter pudding would taste nice :P It's delicious!
Just got home, and will have a nice long shower now :D

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this weekend is gonna be so awesome! So we're going to Anita's tonight for a girls' night in :D

Then I'm crashing at Hannah's....and then I'M SEEING FALL OUT BOY and COBRA STARSHIP!!!!!

OMFG talk about being fucking excited :D :D i seriously cannot fucking wait! It's gonna be just....fucking wow!!

Wearing, shorts, leggings, FOB top, converse (one i customised to have the FOB logo). Will buy a Cobra Starship top when I'm there :D

xox

Richard, I fuckin hate you.

check out my livejournal (romance-94) and deviantart (cetrimide) if you want an update

congrats to Mikey Way, who married Alicia on the 8th :D best wishes to you both

 

xox

Stayed at Hannah's friday night, which was awesome :] had a johnny depp night haha

saturday went out with Ema and Hans, bought a new nose ring *pic coming soon*. It's tighter and multi coloured :D I love it. I now have my small ball ring in my lip, but I want to get a new lip ring too.

I faked my second doctor's note and have got the rest of term off (until april 4th), and I still get my EMA *wooh* I'm clever haha Money For Nothing.

I had a major mental freakout yesterday morning, and a smaller one in the afternoon. My 'alter ego' kicked in. Think smashed glass and tears : yea, not so great.

Cobra Starship and Fall Out Boy this sunday...I still need to buy some leggings to wear with my shorts!! Library today, then going to town tomorrow :]

Listening to FOB's version of  'Start Today'...i love it :]

http://smashingtechnology.com/modeling/profile.asp?SmashBox_ProfileID=1251212

go on that link and vote for Alicia Simmons :]

xox

I'm loving my new lip piercing :] got a lovely blue capture ball ring through, but I want to get a segment ring for my lip and nose :]

I've planned what tattoos I want, now I just need the money and a place I won't be ID'd haha

So went to Rocadillos after college yesterday with 3 friends. Well, we went to town. Imi got some eyeshadow, and we both got tops. Hooray for liberation :P THEN we went to the cafe, and I love it there :] They film Skins in there sometimes too, so I was like YAY. Chips and milkshakes....mmm-mmm :]

J* has released his shizzle FINALLY :D which means and iPod update.

I just wrote a fake doctor's note. AND SARAH ISN'T BUYING THE CORSET FROM ME ANYMORE, SO I NEED SOME OTHER BUYER!! AAARGH! ANITA!!!

all for now. Been sober for nearly 2 weeks now :] FOB on April 1st!!

xox

Okay, so I recorded a couple of new versions of GoY, Desert Song, and I've also done a new one. I'll be putting up FOB's 'Grand Theft Autumn' soon enough :]

xox

They're recordings of  me. the sound quality is diabolical; i apologise.

I will post better quality versions when I can

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Okay...so I now have an MCR style dress. It's made by Black List, and it's the silver Chemical dress :] I fucking love it.

I have a corset I'm selling off too. 26 inch. Don't ask how I got it; I just need some money :]

Pierced my lip the other night. I had a safety pin in over night, then a body bar. I now have a blue lip ring in it. The swelling has gone down by 90% and I love it!! Saved me about £40 getting done it somewhere else. It didn't even hurt!!

I'm doing  'The Ghost Of You' for the MCRmy CD. I've created my own MySpace music profile too, with more stuff on: www.myspace.com/romanceuk

That's all for now :] Oh, and I've been sober for a week and I'll be off my meds this week!!

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Just checking out the boards, cause I haven't been on for a couple of days.

Someone has the most incredible idea! Basically all us Pvts can record an MCR song of our choice, either singing to a stripped track to with our own music, and it'll be put onto a CD to give to the band....how awesome?? I need to choose what song I want to do now...

http://silhouettes1.livejournal.com/

check it out

 

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Chlordiazepoxide Hydrochloride.

I fucking love this stuff. It's helping my withdrawals AND my anxiety.

Pills are magic.

There's a moment  between the joke and the laughter when your brains notices a glitch, and tells you to shut the fuck up. A moment just before a smile forces itself into your eyes. There's a moment between the memory and the one liner. And I think that's where I lie.

So Friday really was it.

On the upside, I handed in my English Coursework, and found out I got the top grade (A) in my exam...though I didn't read the book!

Went out that night. Drank a whole bottle of red wine (which tasted lovely btw). I nearly died. As in I was slipping in and out of concsiousness. I physically could not walk. I was just lying on the ground puking up, and I have no idea how long for. I've forgotten I'd say about 90% of that night.

I truly have hit rock bottom. And I'm not looking forward to my cravings in a day or two.

This is going to suck majorly. Understatement or fucking what. At least my parents have finally opened their eyes.

Fall Out Boy on April 1st. Cannot fucking wait! I need to go to that gig so bad!

Hannah, I'm sorry. I just don't rememember, so I have to go by what my parents said. I still love you :]

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Jeez I am so fucking tired! I've next to no sleep these past few...uh, weeks lol. I am wrecked, but I just can't get to sleep until about 1am at the earliest. I've been reading Pete Wentz's old journals on FBR, and some of the stuff he's written is incredible! It gave me inspiration to write a couple of things myself, now up on my DA account. http://cetrimide.deviantart.com

Friday tomorrow...coursework hand in, and exam result *shitshitshit* I'm terrified! Still, it's less than a month till I see Cobra Starship and Fall Out Boy. APRIL 1ST BIATCH. On that note, I just ordered the Cobra Starship album from the U.S. Should be here in a couple of weeks :]

I need a fucking break. I can't think or concentrate. All I have are my words. Jackshit. I haven't had any alcohol for about 5 days now, and I feel so shit. I've got the shakes from it. Going out to get wasted tomorrow though, so all is good! I would have gone to Tesco to buy some pills, but my mum was home. I might go out later when I have a fag :] I need just enough to make me numb. I miss that feeling.

GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HERE

That's all for now. www.livejournal.com/romance_94

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