Your Promises, They Look Like Lies

this weekend is gonna be so awesome! So we're going to Anita's tonight for a girls' night in :D

Then I'm crashing at Hannah's....and then I'M SEEING FALL OUT BOY and COBRA STARSHIP!!!!!

OMFG talk about being fucking excited :D :D i seriously cannot fucking wait! It's gonna be just....fucking wow!!

Wearing, shorts, leggings, FOB top, converse (one i customised to have the FOB logo). Will buy a Cobra Starship top when I'm there :D

xox

Richard, I fuckin hate you.

check out my livejournal (romance-94) and deviantart (cetrimide) if you want an update

congrats to Mikey Way, who married Alicia on the 8th :D best wishes to you both

 

xox

Stayed at Hannah's friday night, which was awesome :] had a johnny depp night haha

saturday went out with Ema and Hans, bought a new nose ring *pic coming soon*. It's tighter and multi coloured :D I love it. I now have my small ball ring in my lip, but I want to get a new lip ring too.

I faked my second doctor's note and have got the rest of term off (until april 4th), and I still get my EMA *wooh* I'm clever haha Money For Nothing.

I had a major mental freakout yesterday morning, and a smaller one in the afternoon. My 'alter ego' kicked in. Think smashed glass and tears : yea, not so great.

Cobra Starship and Fall Out Boy this sunday...I still need to buy some leggings to wear with my shorts!! Library today, then going to town tomorrow :]

Listening to FOB's version of  'Start Today'...i love it :]

http://smashingtechnology.com/modeling/profile.asp?SmashBox_ProfileID=1251212

go on that link and vote for Alicia Simmons :]

xox

I'm loving my new lip piercing :] got a lovely blue capture ball ring through, but I want to get a segment ring for my lip and nose :]

I've planned what tattoos I want, now I just need the money and a place I won't be ID'd haha

So went to Rocadillos after college yesterday with 3 friends. Well, we went to town. Imi got some eyeshadow, and we both got tops. Hooray for liberation :P THEN we went to the cafe, and I love it there :] They film Skins in there sometimes too, so I was like YAY. Chips and milkshakes....mmm-mmm :]

J* has released his shizzle FINALLY :D which means and iPod update.

I just wrote a fake doctor's note. AND SARAH ISN'T BUYING THE CORSET FROM ME ANYMORE, SO I NEED SOME OTHER BUYER!! AAARGH! ANITA!!!

all for now. Been sober for nearly 2 weeks now :] FOB on April 1st!!

xox

Okay, so I recorded a couple of new versions of GoY, Desert Song, and I've also done a new one. I'll be putting up FOB's 'Grand Theft Autumn' soon enough :]

xox

They're recordings of  me. the sound quality is diabolical; i apologise.

I will post better quality versions when I can

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Okay...so I now have an MCR style dress. It's made by Black List, and it's the silver Chemical dress :] I fucking love it.

I have a corset I'm selling off too. 26 inch. Don't ask how I got it; I just need some money :]

Pierced my lip the other night. I had a safety pin in over night, then a body bar. I now have a blue lip ring in it. The swelling has gone down by 90% and I love it!! Saved me about £40 getting done it somewhere else. It didn't even hurt!!

I'm doing  'The Ghost Of You' for the MCRmy CD. I've created my own MySpace music profile too, with more stuff on: www.myspace.com/romanceuk

That's all for now :] Oh, and I've been sober for a week and I'll be off my meds this week!!

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Just checking out the boards, cause I haven't been on for a couple of days.

Someone has the most incredible idea! Basically all us Pvts can record an MCR song of our choice, either singing to a stripped track to with our own music, and it'll be put onto a CD to give to the band....how awesome?? I need to choose what song I want to do now...

http://silhouettes1.livejournal.com/

check it out

 

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Chlordiazepoxide Hydrochloride.

I fucking love this stuff. It's helping my withdrawals AND my anxiety.

Pills are magic.

There's a moment  between the joke and the laughter when your brains notices a glitch, and tells you to shut the fuck up. A moment just before a smile forces itself into your eyes. There's a moment between the memory and the one liner. And I think that's where I lie.

So Friday really was it.

On the upside, I handed in my English Coursework, and found out I got the top grade (A) in my exam...though I didn't read the book!

Went out that night. Drank a whole bottle of red wine (which tasted lovely btw). I nearly died. As in I was slipping in and out of concsiousness. I physically could not walk. I was just lying on the ground puking up, and I have no idea how long for. I've forgotten I'd say about 90% of that night.

I truly have hit rock bottom. And I'm not looking forward to my cravings in a day or two.

This is going to suck majorly. Understatement or fucking what. At least my parents have finally opened their eyes.

Fall Out Boy on April 1st. Cannot fucking wait! I need to go to that gig so bad!

Hannah, I'm sorry. I just don't rememember, so I have to go by what my parents said. I still love you :]

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Jeez I am so fucking tired! I've next to no sleep these past few...uh, weeks lol. I am wrecked, but I just can't get to sleep until about 1am at the earliest. I've been reading Pete Wentz's old journals on FBR, and some of the stuff he's written is incredible! It gave me inspiration to write a couple of things myself, now up on my DA account. http://cetrimide.deviantart.com

Friday tomorrow...coursework hand in, and exam result *shitshitshit* I'm terrified! Still, it's less than a month till I see Cobra Starship and Fall Out Boy. APRIL 1ST BIATCH. On that note, I just ordered the Cobra Starship album from the U.S. Should be here in a couple of weeks :]

I need a fucking break. I can't think or concentrate. All I have are my words. Jackshit. I haven't had any alcohol for about 5 days now, and I feel so shit. I've got the shakes from it. Going out to get wasted tomorrow though, so all is good! I would have gone to Tesco to buy some pills, but my mum was home. I might go out later when I have a fag :] I need just enough to make me numb. I miss that feeling.

GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HERE

That's all for now. www.livejournal.com/romance_94

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I feel so shit.

I've had about four hours sleep. I need a fucking beer, and my parents have physically LOCKED the alcohol away. I have to pick that damn lock! We have whiskey too...

I'm meant to be in college right now. But I don't want to go. So I've sent my teachers e-mails saying 'i have a medical appointment'. As long as they give me an Authorised Absence, I'll still get my EMA payment :]

I need fucking help. Seriously, I know I'm sinking. There's only so much that can keep me above

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